Post Zumba Glow!
Okay fine. Not “glow” per se. Hahaha
Just so refreshed and all fired up after a great workout that I got a little confident and went for this shot.
Anyway, I really got to make this a habit –well, exercising and NOT taking photos of myself (I got you scared eh? haha).
I need this. We need this.
There’s nothing like a good workout to get us motivated, refreshed, and happy. Quoting Elle Woods:
“Exercise gives you endorphin. Endorphin makes you happy. Happy people don’t just kill.”
So save your sanity. Be happy. Exercise. No excuses!
So this is my second “selfie” of the day. Well, technically, this is not a selfie because I got someone else to take a picture of me (I call it a selfie, none the less, because I rarely have a solo picture taken). But I was just so happy to see this specific design of tumbler in orange! I just went for it. No second thoughts.
Just to defend myself, this is not really an impulse buy because I’ve been wanting to buy a tumbler of this design since I broke my old one. And I’ve just been waiting for a sign if it’s the right time to buy one (it is expensive for a drinking receptacle… and as you can see in the background, I have other perfectly good glasses to use)… But the color orange was the tip of the iceberg.
The defense rests. *wink*
**Side Note: Don’t worry. This post does not mean I will be starting to take more selfie shots. This will certainly be once in a blue moon. So please excuse me, indulge me, and enjoy yourself! Haha
I still can’t get over this super fan girl convo I had with Jessa Marie! 🙂
Can I be anymore pathetic?
It’s daunting how house chores can eat up a whole of your day or even a whole weekend! Yes, it is kind of fulfilling to have done so much with your time… But what have you done really?
Okay. So you got your clothes clean, your room in order, and your belly satisfied with cooking. It’s a win-win. But what if every weekend and spare time from work consisted of these chores? It feels like that for me. Waking up, going to work, doing chores… then repeat.
Not that I hate routine. But I feel like a zombie lately. I haven’t been able to do other things– creative things. All because I’m not behind on house chores.
Is this really the trade off of having a nice meal, a clean room, fresh sheets, and newly laundered clothes? Is doing things you “need” to do make you tired enough to be uninspired for the things you “want” to do?
No wonder rich people get to do and accomplish so much. They have people to do all the other things for them.
Okay. Now I’m just being bitter.
Don’t mind me. This is just the tired and uninspired me talking.
I’m off. I need to cook dinner. Pfft.
My mind is such a big blank right now.
Not only is it blank but it’s a wasteland.
Lately, nothing inspires me. Not even the things I’m so (or was so) passionate about.
Music. Movies. Theater. Math. Science.
I cannot even sing — my favorite thing to do! It is (or was) my pick-me-upper.
But now? Nada. Nothing. Zilch!
I just want to retreat and drown myself with brainless TV shows and the addictive Candy Crush!
I can’t eat. I’m sick to my stomach.
I don’t want to go out. I don’t wanna talk to people.
Is this depression?
I need to do something to get me out of this funk.
Save me from this wasteland.
I just crossed out one item from my very long wish list.
This “list” contains things that I need… but not right away.
Meaning, I can still go on without them because I have worn out or alternative versions of them.
Sample items in this list are…
- good training or running shoes – I need them because they keep me from doing physical exercises (e.g. running, joining dance classes, etc.). They are always my number one excuse for skipping on doing workouts.
- sturdy black flats for the office – I need a pair of black office shoes that could go well with any business outfit. I have black pumps with small heels in my bottom desk drawer at work… but the keyword is “heels”. I’m not that very comfortable with elevated heels. So the ones I always end up wearing are my very sturdy (…and slightly expensive. Well, expensive than my usual buys) bright red topsiders. And, yes. I wear them with everything. Pants, skirt, dresses. Even if the colors clash. I am so comfortable wearing them that I really don’t care if it totally ruins the rules of fashion or style or whatever. Anyway… my love for these red shoes might be tamed with the presence of new ones. This time, I’m going to buy black ones, so it won’t be awkward pairing it with whatever. Haha.
And the item I finally get to cross out is a new and updated pair of eyeglasses!
I have been wearing glasses everyday since I was eight years old up until I was twenty-one.
And every year, my glasses were upgraded (more like replaced) with new ones. New frames and new lenses… because having congenital myopia means that every time I grow, my eyes grow more blurred, too.
My parents never got me contact lenses during this time because they knew how careless I was with my things. And hearing horror stories of how people lost their contacts made them scared for me. I am practically blind without my glasses. So they could only imagine me losing my contacts in a public place and misplacing my glasses at the same time. I would be helplessly making my way through that.
When I started working, I finally bought myself contact lenses.
They were hell at first but they became my heaven. I realized that I missed out on a lot of things by wearing eye glasses (or hiding behind them) everyday for twelve years… like sports and waking up to a literally clear morning. For the first time, I have enjoyed going to the beach because I can finally see my swimming buddies! And I also got to see underwater stuff now. I realized that my pre-contact lens self was so pathetic.
Anyway, I got so hooked with contact lenses that I neglected my eyeglasses.
Plus, contact lenses are way cheaper than eyeglasses (the ones I need are not the typical over-the-counter ones. So they can be pretty expensive). And since I’m the one already buying (parent’s support cut off already…), I leaned towards the cheaper option.
Now, I’ve had enough.
I have had my share of fun and comfort with contact lenses.
But I also have had my share of red and itchy infected eyes because of them.
And since my eyeglasses do not have my latest grade prescribed on them, I get really dizzy and my head hurts every time I switch from contacts to glasses.
I don’t plan to go back to wearing eye glasses all the time.
But now that I have ordered new ones, its prescription will now be the same with my contact lenses.
So I can opt to wear whatever I feel like wearing.
It’s such a hassle… but it’s already a part of me.
I cannot even imagine getting laser surgery for my eyes.
For one, I still don’t have the budget. But the other thing is… it will be so surreal for me.
All my life, the world is this literally big blur.
All my life, I have just been looking through the world using different life-saving mediums.
And then one day, after just a fifteen-minute surgery, I will be free from the things that I have been forever dependent to?
Everything will be clear from then?
That would really make me break down and cry.